taking a break

Hey guys,

I'm taking an extended break from blogging. I've gotten over it and don't really have anything to say that I want to share :)

My daughter is doing well and I just have to keep praying for her...after all, she still has 6 more years until she's not a teenager anymore ;)

I'm changing directions in my life and won't be training anymore after I finish up with several of my clients. I'm working on something that I hope you will hear about, nationally, by spring of next year. No, I won't say a word about it yet, but you may see my name in Walmarts. :)

Life is good, I'm happy...happier than I've been in several months. Getting rid of negative jerks that take advantage of you and lie for no good reason is liberating!

If you are doing well and living a good life, insecure people will talk about you and try to put you down. It just goes to show how miserable they are, and it's really sad...for them!

Be confident in yourself and don't let people knock your dreams. Don't let idiots get you down and stop you in your tracks. SHOW them what you are made of and pursue your dreams. I am!

I'll be back eventually, bragging about my success. :)

Fasting and Praying for Change - Day 1

I'm going to turn this into a fasting journal for now. My daughter is going through some tough things and it's very hard on the family. I've felt led to pray and fast for a long time, and I'm doing it now.

I'm doing this for change in our lives, for my daughter's well being, and to get even closer to the Lord.

Today is day 1, so it's been fairly easy. I woke up hungrier than usual and that's a blast to start a fast off with, but it's been good.

I have a juicer, but honestly today I just didn't want to "work", so I'm drinking v-8 and water. I may juice tomorrow as I have everything to do it with.

I'm sure this won't be too easy, but since I've felt led to do it, I will survive.

Also, I may go ahead and start that vlogging I've been talking about! It might help more than writing.

Dang

I don't think I've EVER neglected my blog for this long before!

I've been keeping very, very busy with the kids and missing my hubby. That post from a couple months ago when I was complaining about him? HA! I almost wish he was underfoot again.

He's coming home next Thursday for a visit and I SO cannot wait! It will be something like 7 weeks since we've seen him. I was going through pictures the other day and I found one of him and it just tugged at my heart. I love that big lug. :)

I've been working on the garden a little bit, but the weather hasn't been cooperating! It's 70 degrees one week, drops down to 40 the next week, then back up and down. It's makin' me nuts!

Jody usually does the tilling, but I've had to do it, and it's tough!! That tiller is big and heavy, but I did it! My daughter took a pic:



I immediately dropped 2 pounds after doing that and my obliques were sore for a week!

Speaking of weight loss, I've been doing great with the workouts and eating. I'm down about 12 pounds and have a few more to go.

I have something in the works that I'm really really really excited about, but I won't say anything about it for a while...don't want to jinx it!! It's exciting, though :)

Living the Single Parent Lifestyle

I know I'm not really a single parent, but it sure feels like it!

We are adjusting to life without my husband and it really is getting better. I still have my moments, like last night when he told me he couldn't come home until the first week in April, and he doesn't want us coming to Nevada because:

1. it's a 1500 mile drive
2. There is absolutely nothing to do in Winnemucca, Nevada
3. He is working so much that we wouldn't see him anyway
4. There's no guarantee that the weather will be okay and this girl does NOT know how to drive in snow.

So, we have 3.5 weeks until we see him again. He did say this would be the longest we would go without seeing eachother. After April, we'll see him about every 3 weeks or so, so not too bad.

I'm doing everything on my own now, and I just didn't realize how much I depend on my husband. We used to split the time running the kids to their places, or I took a couple one place while he took another one somewhere else. Now? I'm running my fool head off trying to make sure everyone gets to where they need to be.

I've also started painting my bedroom, but I can't finish it because I can't move the big heavy bed! So I'll have to wait until April to get it finished :)

On the other hand, I've been climbing ladders to fix part of the siding that blew off in the wind, I'm chopping wood (I stink at that), and just doing a lot of the "manly" stuff that he had been doing.

It's actually making me more confident in certain areas and it feels kind of good. Of course, I'm busier than I've ever been, but I can do it.

Ahhh better

God answers prayers. Last week I pretty much kept to myself and hung around the house. If I do too much of that, I start to feel myself slide down into a type of depression, but Friday? I woke up and something just snapped. My "mourning" was over and I got busy.

I've been working hard on the house, well really my bedroom and redecorating it, and working on little craft projects. Then Saturday night I let each of the girls bring a friend to the mall and the movies and we had the best time! I LOVE their friends here! They all wanted to stick with me and I thought it was so sweet that I bought all six kids an Icee and a cookie. Oh, then I took them to the movies and they ALL wanted to see this movie "The Unborn" and it was so scary! And rated PG-13?? I had to walk out halfway through and called hubby and talked to him while I waited for the kids.

Sunday I hooked up the WII for the kids and they had fun with that while I worked on painting the bedroom. The neighbor came over and brought some more wood for us and I chatted it up with him for a while. He is such a sweet guy and always wants to help his neighbors.

Then today I joined a gym, finally, and this will help me stay out of the house. But, my schedule is really full for the next month, so God is answering my prayers and I'll just stay busy until I see my husband again, then do it all over again :)

My diet has been ON and I'm happy about that. It really is so much easier without the hubby here.

That's it, nothing overly exciting, but I'm better and the kids are even more behaved, probably because they don't want to see their Mama snap lol

Well, he's gone

Hubby left for Nevada Saturday morning and it was a bit emotional for all of us. He left very early that morning, then my daughter had an all day birthday party, so we were pretty busy and it was easier to get through the day.

Yesterday, Sunday, was a lonely day. Sunday's usually are laid back and a little boring, but it seemed a little more so with him gone.

I'm a little concerned about the weekdays because my life has been scheduled around the kids going to school, hubby going to work, me doing my own thing while everyone is gone, then everyone coming home, then supper, family time, then bed.

Since the kids are home by 3 p.m., there's nothing to look forward to after that. I'm not complaining, just trying to work out this new life :o)

I do feel like a single mom now and it's a little tough. The toughest thing so far is trying to keep the fire going in the fireplace! That was always Jody's job, but dang...I have problems with it!

I have exactly one month from today until I see him again and that's my motivation to get on the fitness wagon and STAY on it. He was so bad lately about telling me I look good, don't get skinny, rest, and on and on. Major saboteur! He can't do it now, and really, I want to look good for him, you know, with all the legal brothels around there. :)

I'm going to find a gym this week to join, so I can stay motivated, and also just to meet people! We'll start going to church again soon, too, and that will help.

Then, I guess, the garden will keep me busy and I have all kinds of projects to do around the house that he can't say no to, so that's a plus. lol

The kids are okay so far. We all cried Saturday morning, but pulled up our bootstraps and got to it. I think if I just keep everybody busy and try to have something for us all to look forward to, we'll be okay.

We will be okay.

Pass the Kleenex

My hubby is leaving this Saturday and the reality of it is setting in. I've been crying out of the blue, overreacting to minor issues, having a hard time falling asleep, and all that other stuff that comes with being emotional.

I thought that I was just hormonal or something because I was okay with him leaving. Yeah, read a few blog posts back and you can see that I was MORE than okay with him leaving. I practically had his bags packed and the engine warmed up for him.

Now? I can't sleep because I will miss him. I'm clingy and trying to make him happy. Did you know they have legal brothels in Nevada?? NOT that my hubby would ever in a million years do that, but still. He'll be working with a bunch of lonely miners that have nothing else to do, and I get stupid crazy about it. And I have NO reason to!

Still, I'm tempted to buy some lingerie and be nice to him before he leaves :)

You Oklahoma people need to get in contact with me! I like long walks, coffee, and meaningful conversation. lol!

My priorities have been shifting lately, too. I'm backing off the personal training and sending some of the new clients to Tony. I'll keep a few, of course, but I really want to do my gardening and mother earth stuff. It's hard to find time to do all I want to do with my full client schedule, so I'm backing off a bit on that.

My garden spot is ready to be tilled and I'm so freaking excited about it. It'll be my baby when it's time to plant!




It really doesn't take much to make me happy!

I'm back to couponing again, and am looking for a meter type of thing to put on here that I can keep track of what I save and put into savings. In a weird way, couponing and saving money really calms me. That'll help :)